absinthe

your words haunt me
like a dangerous habit
breaking the skin and leaking out of my veins
i bite my tongue and repress
my thoughts
so i dont drive you away
but i
am caught between breaths
trying to get back to the girl i was with you
and i don't know what to do
i dont know what to do

my mind

begs me to give in, but i tell it quietly no.
my heart cant take another ride like that.
my heart cant take being let go.

Idiot Child

you left me here to
wonder at the marks you left
on my skin

my heart
my spirit

I sit here
and watch the scale
scale
down

and feel
gratified
each pound that slips away

i try
not to wonder
where you are
what you are thinking
the words you are saying in hopes
that
someone can hear them


i heard them.